I was having a considerably better day than I did yesterday. I woke up feeling positive about going to class. I had a very good lecture on newborn assessment, and since my favorite subject in the world is babies, preemies and NICU patients in particular, I was living large. I always get a few wide-eyed stares from nursing students who don't know my story when we have baby lectures. I came into nursing school with a much larger knowledge base on neonatal complications than the average person. Ditto for the review session on ventilators following the baby class. Great school day. One of those days where I remember why I am going to nursing school and that I actually want to be doing this.
So...I thought I'd throw a monkey wrench into my serene mood. I figured, "I know so much more about lab values and vent settings then I did back in 2006...why not break out Matthew's medical records and have a look?" Right. About 6 pages in I had deduced that I do, in fact, know much more medical jargon now. And that no matter how many premature case studies I can plow through without batting an eye, my own case study still really wrecks me. But wait, I had an even better idea. Break out the DVD of Matthew in the NICU and his ultrasound footage and curl up with the Kiddo to watch it together. Serenity successfully chased away by grief. However, I believe I can watch ultrasound footage all day long. I find it so soothing. I have about 10 minutes of tape from Matthew's ultrasound but I have about 3 hours from the Kiddo's zillion ultrasounds. I am contemplating combining them and playing the DVD as I fall asleep. It would probably work better then the nature sounds.
I also have a rousing game of "Where's My Period?" going this week. Let me know if you want to join in.
Mateo and Tobias via Etsy